thats what i asked myself this morning when i woke up @ 7am. today is a mandatory day off so we can pack and relax before we leave for Guatemala at 4am on Friday morning. im sooo excited to be going but i was REALLY excited to sleep in today...
im not quite sure why but i can never sleep in when i want to but once i have to be somewhere i sleep in until the last minute. oh well, beggars cant be choosers.
this blog is the last blog i will be posting for a little over a week so, i wanted to update you on everything that has been going on.
this past week our 3rd year ladies along w. Tepy, Elisa, & Lindsey all went to New York City for a microsoft show. oh how i missed them so! the 1st & 2nd years have been running through dramas and songs like crazy. we all preached our final sermons this week. we started on Monday and then had a group each day. i preached on the last day (wednesday). i was so nervous but it turned out well...until i was done. PC counted me saying "um" 31 times. needless to say, i had to re-preach along w. taking my scripture test after church
i felt a little weird because i knew that everybody had already heard it. but that is quite alright. When i was finished PC said he took lots of notes. now i wasnt sure if he was serious or not. i walked over said "thank you" and grabbed my paper. i didnt look at it until i was about half way home. i opened that paper and there were no notes but it said this: "Kali-Awesome-A." i was slightly ecstatic but didnt really show it.
after last week my emotions have been kind of numb. ive had the urge to cry at the most random times but i wont. its really weird...
on a lighter note, i got a job. well, i may have gotten 2 jobs! :) I was hired @ Panera Bread and i had my orientation on Tuesday afternoon. Then, Old Navy called me for a 2nd interview!! im pumped!!! 2 jobs was my goal for this summer. if there was a way for me to finagle 3 i totally would. now, my next step in this process is to get a car. i need something to get me back and forth and with one job being in portsmouth and the other in kittery, i need something reliable. the only thing holding me back right now is money. it takes money to buy a car and i dont have any!
one of my aunts just sent me a check in the mail to help w. some last minute things on the trip. it is such a blessing because if she didnt then i would have nothing. no money to go w. or no money to get the last minute things that i needed.
anyway, thats really all i wrote for was to update you on the happenings of me as we prepare for Guatemala. oh...& graduation is only a little over 2 weeks away. but we're not talking about that right now.
any questions please email me or comment here and let me know! :)
~Kali <3~
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
lavished w. grace
thats me. well...thats all of us but this morning it was me.
NEMC went to Derry, NH to minister @ Trinity Assembly of God. It was the last time that ALL of us would be ministering together this year. Not all of us are going to Guatemala so that doesnt count and we are doing something @ graduation but thats different.
PC preached on "interrupting grace" from Acts 9:1-20 and it was kind of funny because grace is something that ive been thinking a lot on lately. after our Romans 3 teaching ive had a new favorite word; lavishing. when you think about it, its kind of a weird word but it means so much in this relationship that im in. this relationship with my Abba Father, my daddy God.
He shows me grace that i need but totally do not deserve. ok so to make a long story short. PC preached this morning and then we had an altar call. i prayed for a woman and felt a connection with God the whole time. im always connected but after i stopped praying for her i was just silent. i was talking to my God and just asking Him "why me?" Why would He show me this grace that i dont deserve? PC & Mrs. Patty were walking through the altar and praying for everyone who responded.
I stood off to the side as i was asking these questions. i then closed my eyes and just began to worship. they were praying for more grace. for God to flood us and lavish us with His grace; and yes, PC did use my word this morning. (i smiled) as they prayed for me i just felt everything disappear. all of the sour emotions. the things that i held onto because i thought there was no way i could get rid of it. it felt like a wind was blowing everything clean inside of me.
i got this deep revelation today that God has already claimed me as His. i am clean & spotless in His sight because, to Him, i am covered in grace. i have been too overwhelmed in my own emotions that i have to stay as "strong" as possible as to not be caught off guard. ive had it all wrong. i have to be weak sometimes so that God can be strong in my life. ive heard that before but today it just rang something new inside of me.
so here i am...so amazed @ the fact that i am lavished in His grace and that in my weakness He is made strong; stronger than i could have ever been on my own. thank you Jesus for holding me when i need it. thank you for embracing me and showing me new things when You know i need it! ;)
NEMC went to Derry, NH to minister @ Trinity Assembly of God. It was the last time that ALL of us would be ministering together this year. Not all of us are going to Guatemala so that doesnt count and we are doing something @ graduation but thats different.
PC preached on "interrupting grace" from Acts 9:1-20 and it was kind of funny because grace is something that ive been thinking a lot on lately. after our Romans 3 teaching ive had a new favorite word; lavishing. when you think about it, its kind of a weird word but it means so much in this relationship that im in. this relationship with my Abba Father, my daddy God.
He shows me grace that i need but totally do not deserve. ok so to make a long story short. PC preached this morning and then we had an altar call. i prayed for a woman and felt a connection with God the whole time. im always connected but after i stopped praying for her i was just silent. i was talking to my God and just asking Him "why me?" Why would He show me this grace that i dont deserve? PC & Mrs. Patty were walking through the altar and praying for everyone who responded.
I stood off to the side as i was asking these questions. i then closed my eyes and just began to worship. they were praying for more grace. for God to flood us and lavish us with His grace; and yes, PC did use my word this morning. (i smiled) as they prayed for me i just felt everything disappear. all of the sour emotions. the things that i held onto because i thought there was no way i could get rid of it. it felt like a wind was blowing everything clean inside of me.
i got this deep revelation today that God has already claimed me as His. i am clean & spotless in His sight because, to Him, i am covered in grace. i have been too overwhelmed in my own emotions that i have to stay as "strong" as possible as to not be caught off guard. ive had it all wrong. i have to be weak sometimes so that God can be strong in my life. ive heard that before but today it just rang something new inside of me.
so here i am...so amazed @ the fact that i am lavished in His grace and that in my weakness He is made strong; stronger than i could have ever been on my own. thank you Jesus for holding me when i need it. thank you for embracing me and showing me new things when You know i need it! ;)
--> Kali
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