i know some of you do...come on....think a little harder...
ok, i'll tell you! ITS MY BIRTHDAY!! well...its my birthday 2morow, the 25th of September. i'm so excited but on the other hand im not. as some of you know, there are going to be 2 people that im going to miss tremendously but its okay. im in a place surrounded by people that love me & care for me.
i got my first card today! :) (thanks Judy Kephart!) 2morow i have off! (thank you Jesus!) going to dinner with Todd but i'm trying to find something to do during the day. im going to be 19 but i feel extra old!! just because im watching my sisters grow up sooo fast. one is 16 and the other is 11 now!! CRAZINESS!!!
ok well i'm on lunch right now but i have to go and get ready to keep dramatizing! its soooo awesome!
have a good day world!
~Kali
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Sunday, September 20, 2009
hi!
hello blogosphere!!
im sooo sorry it has taken me so long to update (2 weeks!) i've been wicked busy and oh so tired! not to mention i had some issues with my computer that i REALLY don't want to talk about...Missy(my computer) might get upset @ me. ;)
anyways, im still surviving. we're working like crazy on our dramas and stuff because in a few weeks we're supposed to be going to Georgia! (fingers crossed) its not totally definite yet but we're praying it happens. it will be our first ministry trip. we took a trip to Washington D.C. on the 6th and returned on the 13th. we were staffing an event planning seminar type thing. we had a day off on thursday so we went to visit some of the sights. i had been there twice before but it seemed way different this time. we had fun!
the best part about a trip like that was the bus ride! especially the way back; shayna, kim, and i kept PC (Pastor Chad) awake. we laughed a lot...mostly because we were EXTRA tired! we left DC @ 3a and we got home @ about 430ish. only the first years and a select few of the 2nd & 3rd years returned. everyone else stayed in DC to work a show for the Air Force. we missed them so much and when they got home it definitely showed!
we had a weird week this past week...the DC people came home wednesday night before Ignite and then thursday we had off because friday we had to go to Scarborough, ME to help out with a youth event called UNITEmaine. saturday was supposed to be a chill day until about 4p then there was a wedding @ church we were all invited to. then, after the event on friday, PC texted us and said that he wanted us at the church by 830a. none of us knew what we were going to be doing but that didn't matter.
we got there like any other day but this time we were all REALLY curious. we had morning prayer and then PC wanted to talk to us for a bit. it was almost like he was preaching to us but it was mixed with a talk. i almost thought it was odd because there was no introduction as to why but he just started talking and then soon i understood. it almost seemed like he was "all over the place" with the points he was making but they all made sense in a way. it hit me hard!
in order to understand why i just said what i said, let me fill you in. over the past week, ive been feeling a little out of sorts. not so much physically but emotionally and i wasn't sure why. i felt like i had to talk to somebody about the way i was feeling but on the other hand, i had no idea what to say or how to go about it. therefore, i didnt talk to anybody. then my friend told me to take that confusion to God and let Him help me because He already knows how i feel. so i tried as hard as i could to give it over to Him. by the time saturday morning came, i was slowly coming around to understanding myself and what PC said to us was hitting me where i needed it most; my heart!
then last night was the wedding. it was sooo beautiful! (i cried...& i dont cry) the whole set up and ceremony was beautiful and then the party was sooo fun!! Todd took me out to dinner @ this local mexican place and then i came back for the dancing because none of the 1st years were invited to the reception but Ken said he wanted us to come and party w. them...so we did! :) then this morning was church. we showed up by 830a like we do every week for prayer & Jesus totally showed up and set a standard. not only for today's service but for the way we are to go after Him. church was amazing! worship was amazing (i cried-again!) then PJ(Pastor Jeff) preached like it was the last sermon we would ever hear...it was good!
you may have noticed that in some parentheses throughout this blog i mentioned that i cried. to some people that might seem weird and you might be thinking "okay, why would she put that out there?" well, to me, it matters. im not a crying person and most people that know me know that. i have a hard time showing my emotions in front of people...its a weakness thing. but im learning how to "break." im learning how to approach God with a brokenness so that i can let Him work in my heart and life. its gonna be hard but i am soo ready for it!
well, right now i have to study because tomorrow i have my first SAGU test and then this week was already forewarned as being "really busy!" alls i can say is: BRING IT ON! we have to work really hard on some dramas because next weekend we're going to Windham, ME to minister so we have to be on top of out stuff.
before i go, i wanna make a shout out to all my family & friends in PA. i miss and love you all! i may not have time to talk but i just wanted to let you all know that i haven't forgotten about you and that i REALLY do miss all of you! this goes to all of my blood relatives and church family! XOXO
~Kali~
im sooo sorry it has taken me so long to update (2 weeks!) i've been wicked busy and oh so tired! not to mention i had some issues with my computer that i REALLY don't want to talk about...Missy(my computer) might get upset @ me. ;)
anyways, im still surviving. we're working like crazy on our dramas and stuff because in a few weeks we're supposed to be going to Georgia! (fingers crossed) its not totally definite yet but we're praying it happens. it will be our first ministry trip. we took a trip to Washington D.C. on the 6th and returned on the 13th. we were staffing an event planning seminar type thing. we had a day off on thursday so we went to visit some of the sights. i had been there twice before but it seemed way different this time. we had fun!
the best part about a trip like that was the bus ride! especially the way back; shayna, kim, and i kept PC (Pastor Chad) awake. we laughed a lot...mostly because we were EXTRA tired! we left DC @ 3a and we got home @ about 430ish. only the first years and a select few of the 2nd & 3rd years returned. everyone else stayed in DC to work a show for the Air Force. we missed them so much and when they got home it definitely showed!
we had a weird week this past week...the DC people came home wednesday night before Ignite and then thursday we had off because friday we had to go to Scarborough, ME to help out with a youth event called UNITEmaine. saturday was supposed to be a chill day until about 4p then there was a wedding @ church we were all invited to. then, after the event on friday, PC texted us and said that he wanted us at the church by 830a. none of us knew what we were going to be doing but that didn't matter.
we got there like any other day but this time we were all REALLY curious. we had morning prayer and then PC wanted to talk to us for a bit. it was almost like he was preaching to us but it was mixed with a talk. i almost thought it was odd because there was no introduction as to why but he just started talking and then soon i understood. it almost seemed like he was "all over the place" with the points he was making but they all made sense in a way. it hit me hard!
in order to understand why i just said what i said, let me fill you in. over the past week, ive been feeling a little out of sorts. not so much physically but emotionally and i wasn't sure why. i felt like i had to talk to somebody about the way i was feeling but on the other hand, i had no idea what to say or how to go about it. therefore, i didnt talk to anybody. then my friend told me to take that confusion to God and let Him help me because He already knows how i feel. so i tried as hard as i could to give it over to Him. by the time saturday morning came, i was slowly coming around to understanding myself and what PC said to us was hitting me where i needed it most; my heart!
then last night was the wedding. it was sooo beautiful! (i cried...& i dont cry) the whole set up and ceremony was beautiful and then the party was sooo fun!! Todd took me out to dinner @ this local mexican place and then i came back for the dancing because none of the 1st years were invited to the reception but Ken said he wanted us to come and party w. them...so we did! :) then this morning was church. we showed up by 830a like we do every week for prayer & Jesus totally showed up and set a standard. not only for today's service but for the way we are to go after Him. church was amazing! worship was amazing (i cried-again!) then PJ(Pastor Jeff) preached like it was the last sermon we would ever hear...it was good!
you may have noticed that in some parentheses throughout this blog i mentioned that i cried. to some people that might seem weird and you might be thinking "okay, why would she put that out there?" well, to me, it matters. im not a crying person and most people that know me know that. i have a hard time showing my emotions in front of people...its a weakness thing. but im learning how to "break." im learning how to approach God with a brokenness so that i can let Him work in my heart and life. its gonna be hard but i am soo ready for it!
well, right now i have to study because tomorrow i have my first SAGU test and then this week was already forewarned as being "really busy!" alls i can say is: BRING IT ON! we have to work really hard on some dramas because next weekend we're going to Windham, ME to minister so we have to be on top of out stuff.
before i go, i wanna make a shout out to all my family & friends in PA. i miss and love you all! i may not have time to talk but i just wanted to let you all know that i haven't forgotten about you and that i REALLY do miss all of you! this goes to all of my blood relatives and church family! XOXO
~Kali~
Friday, September 4, 2009
where to start??
Last Sunday was opening ceremony for New England Master's Commission (NEMC). i had moved into my home openers on saturday so sunday after church, i had somewhat of a free day; relaxing and hanging out with friends & family.
On monday we had to sign in by 845a. at 12ish, we were on the road for Keratunk, ME. Our first trip on the bus was to go white-water rafting. This trip was considered our "opening retreat" and it was so amazing. we stayed in little bunk cabins on monday night because we weren't due to go rafting until tuesday.
monday night we had a service in this attic of an arcade. except it didnt look like an attic, it was carpeted w. 2 window A/C units and bench seating. the service was amazing! it was a time for us to get together, pray, & worship God with our whole hearts. that, my friend, is definitely what happened. Our director, Pastor Chad (PC), told us that it was our time to make our hearts like a funnel and allow God to pour Himself out on us. when i tell you it was amazing, i mean it! sometime later, PC asked all of the 1st years to come up to the front and told us that it was our turn to receive.
a few minutes later, PC came up and placed his hands on my shoulders to pray for me. he started praying and i couldn't stand anymore. God's presence filled that place that night and as i lay on the floor, not able to move, i realized that i was in the right place. that this is where God wanted me. i also discovered some things that i needed to work on. OMGSH! God is sooo good! :)
tuesday we went rafting and it was soo fun! i have never been white-water rafting but i've always wanted to. there were some wicked rapids where we all got wet. then there were spots where we could get out of the raft and float/swim for a bit. we could only do that until our guide said "ok come back!" then they would pull us back into the boat by the shoulder straps of our vests. everytime i went to get pulled back into the boat, my vest would come up over my head! it was so annoying but one of the 2nd years thought it was funny; i'm glad i could make her laugh! :)
we arrived back to the camp @ about 230p and then had our covenant service @ about 4p. the covenant service was a time that we got together and the 3rd years shared with us what it meant to have this covenant and that no matter what happens, we are all gonna be family. in short, the covenant just stated that in these next 9-10 months we will not put anything higher than God and that we would not have an intimate relationship with anyone other than Him. that means no dating; which, i knew about & wasn't planning on doing anyway.
after our covenant service was over, we drove the 4 hours back to the church. on wednesday, we had to be in by 930a. that was awesome because i was tired! :) we started drama practice and i'm in a drama called "Hear Me" the song is by Kelly Clarkson. its fun but omgsh my thigh muscles are KILLING me!
yesterday, thursday, we studied a lot did drama and got introduced to some of the other things that we were going to be doing on a weekly basis. these things included sermon internalization and scripture memorization. we are going to be having a scripture test every week except for once a month and that's when we do our newsletters. sermon internalization is where we prepare a sermon based on one of our memorized scriptures and whichever group we're in. there are 5 different groups that determine the focus of your sermon.
as far as the memorization goes, im kind of doing okay...im a little nervous though. i haven't started my internalization yet though and that's due by thursday. i think i'll do okay on that too. today is friday...our day off!!! :) tomorrow we go apple picking, sunday is church, and monday morning @ 5a we leave for DC. we're going to be working a microsoft show. as for right now im so glad just to be able to relax.
i love you guys and i will try to keep you more updated so its not as much but ive been so busy and tired this past week.
~Kali~
On monday we had to sign in by 845a. at 12ish, we were on the road for Keratunk, ME. Our first trip on the bus was to go white-water rafting. This trip was considered our "opening retreat" and it was so amazing. we stayed in little bunk cabins on monday night because we weren't due to go rafting until tuesday.
monday night we had a service in this attic of an arcade. except it didnt look like an attic, it was carpeted w. 2 window A/C units and bench seating. the service was amazing! it was a time for us to get together, pray, & worship God with our whole hearts. that, my friend, is definitely what happened. Our director, Pastor Chad (PC), told us that it was our time to make our hearts like a funnel and allow God to pour Himself out on us. when i tell you it was amazing, i mean it! sometime later, PC asked all of the 1st years to come up to the front and told us that it was our turn to receive.
a few minutes later, PC came up and placed his hands on my shoulders to pray for me. he started praying and i couldn't stand anymore. God's presence filled that place that night and as i lay on the floor, not able to move, i realized that i was in the right place. that this is where God wanted me. i also discovered some things that i needed to work on. OMGSH! God is sooo good! :)
tuesday we went rafting and it was soo fun! i have never been white-water rafting but i've always wanted to. there were some wicked rapids where we all got wet. then there were spots where we could get out of the raft and float/swim for a bit. we could only do that until our guide said "ok come back!" then they would pull us back into the boat by the shoulder straps of our vests. everytime i went to get pulled back into the boat, my vest would come up over my head! it was so annoying but one of the 2nd years thought it was funny; i'm glad i could make her laugh! :)
we arrived back to the camp @ about 230p and then had our covenant service @ about 4p. the covenant service was a time that we got together and the 3rd years shared with us what it meant to have this covenant and that no matter what happens, we are all gonna be family. in short, the covenant just stated that in these next 9-10 months we will not put anything higher than God and that we would not have an intimate relationship with anyone other than Him. that means no dating; which, i knew about & wasn't planning on doing anyway.
after our covenant service was over, we drove the 4 hours back to the church. on wednesday, we had to be in by 930a. that was awesome because i was tired! :) we started drama practice and i'm in a drama called "Hear Me" the song is by Kelly Clarkson. its fun but omgsh my thigh muscles are KILLING me!
yesterday, thursday, we studied a lot did drama and got introduced to some of the other things that we were going to be doing on a weekly basis. these things included sermon internalization and scripture memorization. we are going to be having a scripture test every week except for once a month and that's when we do our newsletters. sermon internalization is where we prepare a sermon based on one of our memorized scriptures and whichever group we're in. there are 5 different groups that determine the focus of your sermon.
as far as the memorization goes, im kind of doing okay...im a little nervous though. i haven't started my internalization yet though and that's due by thursday. i think i'll do okay on that too. today is friday...our day off!!! :) tomorrow we go apple picking, sunday is church, and monday morning @ 5a we leave for DC. we're going to be working a microsoft show. as for right now im so glad just to be able to relax.
i love you guys and i will try to keep you more updated so its not as much but ive been so busy and tired this past week.
~Kali~
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Close Enough
as of right now i have approximately 2 days, 12 hours, 12 minutes, and 30 seconds until i officially start New England Master's Commission. i am soooo excited! i know, i know...my last post said something about being nervous and i still kinda am. my mom and sisters have been in New Hampshire since tuesday afternoon and i have spent a lot of time with them. they want me to spend as much time with them as i can because i wont see them again until probably Thanksgiving. i see exactly where they are coming from but i just want to relax. Christina and the boys came up LATE monday night to surprise Todd. so no matter what i'm not totally gonna do what i wanted because theres just too much going on around me.
alls i really wanna do is relax downtown or at prescott park and do absolutely nothing...maybe even just sleep for about 2 hours longer than normal but in reality i know that wont happen. on friday night @ church there is a lock-in. i've always wanted to go to one and now is my chance. my only dilemma is the simple fact that saturday morning i have orientation @ 10a. the lock-in is from 6p on friday night to 8a the next morning. if i did go i would just take all of my MC stuff with me and then i won't have to worry about bringing it the next day, let alone going home @ 8a and coming back @ 10a. on the other hand, i have a feeling that it would be just too much rushing around for me to do thats all.
idk...im just trying to work it out. tonight @ youth group we just had a chill night. ken went over some scheduled events and then they talked about G5 (Element79?) and some other crucial ministry things. he also brought some things to my attention about MC that i didnt know about yet. there are some things that i have to look forward to in just the next few weeks; Aug. 31-Sept. 1st: White Water Rafting...Sept. 5th: Apple Picking...Sept. 6th-13th: DC Microsoft Show...October 2nd-3rd: Youth & Young Adult Retreat...Tuesday Nights: Evangelising.
so, needless to say, i will be a pretty busy lady come this sunday but i will make an effort to keep my blog updated so all of you readers out there will know what im up to. please leave a comment on what you would like me to keep you updated on the most. i love you all
Love,
~Kali~
alls i really wanna do is relax downtown or at prescott park and do absolutely nothing...maybe even just sleep for about 2 hours longer than normal but in reality i know that wont happen. on friday night @ church there is a lock-in. i've always wanted to go to one and now is my chance. my only dilemma is the simple fact that saturday morning i have orientation @ 10a. the lock-in is from 6p on friday night to 8a the next morning. if i did go i would just take all of my MC stuff with me and then i won't have to worry about bringing it the next day, let alone going home @ 8a and coming back @ 10a. on the other hand, i have a feeling that it would be just too much rushing around for me to do thats all.
idk...im just trying to work it out. tonight @ youth group we just had a chill night. ken went over some scheduled events and then they talked about G5 (Element79?) and some other crucial ministry things. he also brought some things to my attention about MC that i didnt know about yet. there are some things that i have to look forward to in just the next few weeks; Aug. 31-Sept. 1st: White Water Rafting...Sept. 5th: Apple Picking...Sept. 6th-13th: DC Microsoft Show...October 2nd-3rd: Youth & Young Adult Retreat...Tuesday Nights: Evangelising.
so, needless to say, i will be a pretty busy lady come this sunday but i will make an effort to keep my blog updated so all of you readers out there will know what im up to. please leave a comment on what you would like me to keep you updated on the most. i love you all
Love,
~Kali~
Sunday, August 16, 2009
faster & faster
no, not literal speed. i can't run fast so its definitely not that but its the way these days/weeks are going. they're going by faster and faster. in exactly 2 weeks from yesterday, 8/15, will be my Master's Commission orientation. i am sooo excited but, contrary to the way i thought i'd feel, im starting to get nervous. yea, im excited for everything that God wants to do in and through me but im kind of uneasy. i dont know...it happens to all of us; teens that is. we grow up sooner than later and think we can handle it but when it comes to crunch time we can't.
i mean, dont get me wrong...ive experienced things in my life that have called me to be more mature than i wanted to be but now that ive come to the correct time to be grown, i dont want to. im confident that God wants me here so i must leave it all up to Him to show me what He wants me to see. i have a feel on some of the stuff that we are doing already as well as my first scheduled class. we are going white water rafting for our opening retreat on 8/31 than we're going to DC for a microsoft show the 1st week of September. towards the end of the year, we're planning on going on a missions trip to Haiti! how cool is that?! anywayz, its gonna be intense. my first class is going to be OT Hermaneutics.
as far as i go, im okay i guess. today was an okay day...i hurt my back and was still moving stuff from our upstairs apartment downstairs to our new apartment. its way better than taking stuff up but it still hurt my back. then we finished for the day around 6p and just relaxed for a bit until going to Panera w. Miranda for dinner. my back has been spasming ever since we got back from dinner and then i moved the wrong way and popped my shoulder out...ugh!
this morning i was having a "Pop" moment: a time where something clicks in my head that reminds me about Pop and i cry for a minute & then suck it up. i just miss him thats all. i know, its going to sound redundant but its so true. ive got so much going on and for the past week ive found myself sitting around wanting to call someone. i would call him and just talk for a bit about nothing and id usually get frustrated because he would ask me over and over again if i wanted something that he had or if i needed anything. but now i wish i could hear that again.
during the weekend i miss my grandmom. i would call her at least once every weekend just to see how she was feeling or how Bingo went the weekend before. we would just talk and the conversation usually didnt last past 5-10 minutes because i wouldnt know what else to say but it was nice to talk to her and hear her voice because she lived so far away. that is what i miss most about my Gram...just hearing her voice. heck...that's what i miss most about both of them...just being able to call whenever and hear their voice!
i dont know when this feeling will ever go away or even if it will but i dont ever wanna forget them. im not really sure how i will feel come orientation and my opening ceremony. my mom & sisters will be here along w. Todd & Tammi but i still just wish that my grandparents could be there or that i could send/show them pictures later. the rest of my family would be there, im sure, if they could but they have a foundation event in memory of my little cousin, Billy, who died 2 years ago.
i know the next two weeks will fly and my emotions will be on edge and i will be rushing around making sure all my things are together and im not missing/forgetting anything. but that doesn't mean that i cant stay focused. like i said earlier, God has placed me in this position for a reason and i intend on chasing that. "...for such a time as this." the Bible says and thats exactly what this is.
well...its after 12a on 8/16 in Portsmouth, NH and i should really go to bed right now because i have church in the AM and then we finish moving! im tired but im not...oh well...sleep is a good thing. good night all. updates will come as the 29th gets closer and closer.
much love
~Kali~
i mean, dont get me wrong...ive experienced things in my life that have called me to be more mature than i wanted to be but now that ive come to the correct time to be grown, i dont want to. im confident that God wants me here so i must leave it all up to Him to show me what He wants me to see. i have a feel on some of the stuff that we are doing already as well as my first scheduled class. we are going white water rafting for our opening retreat on 8/31 than we're going to DC for a microsoft show the 1st week of September. towards the end of the year, we're planning on going on a missions trip to Haiti! how cool is that?! anywayz, its gonna be intense. my first class is going to be OT Hermaneutics.
as far as i go, im okay i guess. today was an okay day...i hurt my back and was still moving stuff from our upstairs apartment downstairs to our new apartment. its way better than taking stuff up but it still hurt my back. then we finished for the day around 6p and just relaxed for a bit until going to Panera w. Miranda for dinner. my back has been spasming ever since we got back from dinner and then i moved the wrong way and popped my shoulder out...ugh!
this morning i was having a "Pop" moment: a time where something clicks in my head that reminds me about Pop and i cry for a minute & then suck it up. i just miss him thats all. i know, its going to sound redundant but its so true. ive got so much going on and for the past week ive found myself sitting around wanting to call someone. i would call him and just talk for a bit about nothing and id usually get frustrated because he would ask me over and over again if i wanted something that he had or if i needed anything. but now i wish i could hear that again.
during the weekend i miss my grandmom. i would call her at least once every weekend just to see how she was feeling or how Bingo went the weekend before. we would just talk and the conversation usually didnt last past 5-10 minutes because i wouldnt know what else to say but it was nice to talk to her and hear her voice because she lived so far away. that is what i miss most about my Gram...just hearing her voice. heck...that's what i miss most about both of them...just being able to call whenever and hear their voice!
i dont know when this feeling will ever go away or even if it will but i dont ever wanna forget them. im not really sure how i will feel come orientation and my opening ceremony. my mom & sisters will be here along w. Todd & Tammi but i still just wish that my grandparents could be there or that i could send/show them pictures later. the rest of my family would be there, im sure, if they could but they have a foundation event in memory of my little cousin, Billy, who died 2 years ago.
i know the next two weeks will fly and my emotions will be on edge and i will be rushing around making sure all my things are together and im not missing/forgetting anything. but that doesn't mean that i cant stay focused. like i said earlier, God has placed me in this position for a reason and i intend on chasing that. "...for such a time as this." the Bible says and thats exactly what this is.
well...its after 12a on 8/16 in Portsmouth, NH and i should really go to bed right now because i have church in the AM and then we finish moving! im tired but im not...oh well...sleep is a good thing. good night all. updates will come as the 29th gets closer and closer.
much love
~Kali~
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