Quick Update

this is a long awaited blog...i can tell from all the emails im getting telling me to blog. (jk jk, can you sense the sarcasm?) i'm actually just blogging because i feel i owe it to those of you who do read my blog.

everything here is going okay. school's fine, i mean im getting my grades up. i'm still working @ McDonald's. i got my raise a little while ago. i dont remember if i blogged that or not. i was sooo excited because i've been waiting for this raise for about 1 1/2 years. we now have 3 training mgrs so as soon as we get our new training materials, i will be able to take my test.

ok so to be honest, ive had sort of a rough couple weeks. im taking it day by day and trying to comprehend the daily events. certain things happen that trigger raw emotion. that raw emotion is the kind of emotion that i dont wanna neglect but i want to hide. im not really sure what to do with that raw emotion but i feel like im getting better and better at handling with every other curve ball that life throws at me.

i'm gonna end this blog because i dont wanna go on and on about nothing. im leaving you with 4 things...well 1 thing and 3 songs that have rocked my world over the past 2-3 weeks
1.) on Sunday, PB said he was gonna start updating his blog...im excited but still waiting ;) lol PB's the best!
2.) "You Said" By: Hillsong
3.) "Be Still" By: Storyside B
4.) "Outrage" By: Capital Lights

--these songs are pretty kool and are just totally AWESOME!! to listen to ;) you can find them on my playlist @ the right if they were on playlist.com-->

i will be back later...probably saturday or sunday night. Sunday night there's a prayer meeting at church so idk what time i'll be home.

peace & luv ppls, peace & luv
~Kali <3

i'm baaaaccckkk!!!

that's right people...im back!! im back and better than ever!! actually, i just got unbanned from the computer...i have a blog in reserve but i am nowhere near ready to sit down and finish typing it all out. this is actually short because i'm tired and ready for bed (i have to get up early). so this is just a post to let you know that you are now allowed to bother me if i dont blog anytime soon!! ;)

Temporarily Disconnected

ok so me and my computer have been temporarily disconnected. well, actually, i've been banned from the computer. i failed the first semester of Geometry and Study Island. idk what my deal with Study Island is. i finished all the lessons required and i completed them and handed them in by their due dates. i guess i just don't understand the system...

now Geometry, that's another story. i understand the material. i am thinking that i failed because my test grades we're below par. either way, i'm not allowed on the computer. when i will be back is unknown at the moment. i'm sure i will have a lot to write when i return so in the meantime please don't forget me & keep checking in for a new post. it will be the 2nd thing i do when i'm allowed back on. the 1st thing i will do will be to check my email, of course!! ;)

much love
~Kali

What a Week!

-->hello...ok so i realized something the other day. i realized that it's been a while since i blogged. then, today i was chatting with someone who pretty much yelled at me for not updating my blog!! i understand i haven't been majorly on top of things but i'm trying. i think of ideas and then i get busy and forget or i just plain old forget.

-->Sunday was the big game! the NFC championship game, the last game before the SuperBowl! well, the Eagles blew it...yes, they lost...TO THE CARDINALS!! (whats up with that?) before the game started, my aunt and uncle sent me the following picture:

(^Leah & Bella^)

-->these girls are my two youngest cousins. The cheerleading outfit that Bella is wearing is what i gave her for Christmas...doesn't she look soooo cute?!? don't they both look sooo cute?!?!

-->anywayz, i've been neglecting the blog for no particular reason, i've just been a little busy...on monday morning i had oral surgery. i know it sounds gross but you really have no idea...so i'll tell you!

-->It all started in November of '07 when i got my last baby tooth pulled. my orthodontist said it had to be done so that adult tooth could come in and we could continue with the tightening of my braces. So, i went through with it. They pulled the tooth and after a year, the tooth never came down an inch, not even a centimeter! This whole oral surgery situation was totally stressful. I went from having to get a tooth pulled to having to get my gum cut open. needless to say, i got my gum cut so they could put a bracket on that tooth. Then, they put a chain on that bracket and now my orthodontist has to attach the chain to my brace wire.

-->during the procedure, they put me to sleep AND put novacaine around the surgical area. i dont remember much after i woke up. i dont even remember walking out to the car. when i got home, i layed on the couch and fell asleep until about 1030a. i was semi-out of it all day. the pain really didn't set in until about 12p. by that time i had taken my prescribed pain meds. my gums were still bleeding at 130p and im glad they stopped then. the picture below was taken the day after the operation...it's pretty small in case you don't wanna look.

-->they gave me Vicoden for the pain and it made me feel not like myself. i was drowsy and majorly out of it!! the last time i took them was Tuesday night and i've been taking Tylenol and Ibuprofen since. the swelling goes back and forth and the pain throbs every once in a while, especially when i laugh/smile. but besides that, i seem to be doing okay. tonight the chain unraveled and is now hanging from my top gums. which is sooo annoying, if i may say so myself! there's a picture of that below this paragraph.

-->so now my deal is to wait. i have to make the orthodontist appointment that will get this big ball rolling. when that will be for, well, i just dont know as of yet. so for right now i wait...on another note, let's talk about family. mine is a little hectic right now. im not gonna get into major details but i'm feeling a little confused, frustrated, upset, and just plain lost.

-->my major concern would be my grandmom. she has cancer and has been through a round of chemotherapy. her doctor has just recently told her that the chemo wasn't working or slowing anything down. so, she "made a big girl decision" (those were her words) and she just stopped the chemo altogether. i am unaware on the biggest details of all...what else the doctor said! she's not much for talking about it so i will just have to wait. we're not sure how long he told her she has or what she thinks about the whole situation. like i said, im just so lost & confused.

-->ok well now i have to go to bed before i start thinking too deeply into all these details. i will leave you with some verses that i've kept reverting back to all week and a song that i can't stop listening to!

~Sincerely,

KLM

Verses

Ecclesiastes 7:14(MSG): "On a good day, enjoy yourself; On a bad day, examine your your conscience. God arranges for both kinds of days so that we won't take anything for granted."

Colossians 4:2(NLT): "Devote yourselves to prayer with an alert mind and a thankful heart."

Song of the Week (can be found on iTunes)

Title: The Motions

Artist: Matthew West

Album: Something To Say

What am i supposed to feel right now!?!

this is a blog to follow my previous blog...needless to say im still a slight mess. my mind keeps wandering and i feel so down. i know, people might say not to fall into depression and im trying, really i am! i just cant fully comprehend exactly what this past week has involved. i mean seriously tho. my family means the world to me, really they do but sometimes i just dont understand why they do some of the things they do.

i dont really know what to think about my feelings. and i truly feel like im just blabbing right now but its starting to help. i need to talk to someone that i can feel comfortable enough with to cry in front of & they won't thing im being irrational. ya, that's just what i need...someone to tell me im exaggerating.

something i do need though is sleep...i'm trying to get as much sleep as i can at night but it's not working out. im tossing and turning and i wake up in the middle of the night and i think its time to get up but then its not so i go back to sleep and before i know it, its time to get up! let's take this morning for example...i woke up at like 7a and my alarm was supposed to go off @ 820a. then, jeremy knocked on my door @ 8a and i was like "oh no!" so i got up and got ready all by 820a...how ironic!

got off 2 church by 920a and felt a little out of place(idk y). got 2 church and typed up songs but i didnt get thru them w/o crying first. ugh! some people said they were sorry for my loss...some people didnt know. some of the times i wanted to say it was ok but then again its not...i mean it is okay, its great because he's not hurting anymore. but, idk i guess im being selfish, because im gonna miss him. im gonna miss him A LOT!!

its 1116p on sunday night after the Eagles beat the Giants 23-11 (Historic Record) and im crying while eating a pint of Ben & Jerry's chocolate fudge brownie ice cream...yum! i have to wake up @ 715a so i can start school by 730a. i have 2 papers to write, as well as a science project to do. i have to go to the store and buy the materials though. i keep forgetting while im at the store...ugh!

i seriously have to go to bed now so there will be no weekend wrap-up but i will give you a song to check out and i will leave you with a tad bit of good news. i became a member of my church today! how kool is that?!

Song of the Day/Weekend/Week (found on playlist to the right-->)
Title: You Can Let Go
Artist: Crystal Shawanda
Album: Dawn of a New Day