lavished w. grace

thats me. well...thats all of us but this morning it was me.

NEMC went to Derry, NH to minister @ Trinity Assembly of God. It was the last time that ALL of us would be ministering together this year. Not all of us are going to Guatemala so that doesnt count and we are doing something @ graduation but thats different.

PC preached on "interrupting grace" from Acts 9:1-20 and it was kind of funny because grace is something that ive been thinking a lot on lately. after our Romans 3 teaching ive had a new favorite word; lavishing. when you think about it, its kind of a weird word but it means so much in this relationship that im in. this relationship with my Abba Father, my daddy God.

He shows me grace that i need but totally do not deserve. ok so to make a long story short. PC preached this morning and then we had an altar call. i prayed for a woman and felt a connection with God the whole time. im always connected but after i stopped praying for her i was just silent. i was talking to my God and just asking Him "why me?" Why would He show me this grace that i dont deserve? PC & Mrs. Patty were walking through the altar and praying for everyone who responded.

I stood off to the side as i was asking these questions. i then closed my eyes and just began to worship. they were praying for more grace. for God to flood us and lavish us with His grace; and yes, PC did use my word this morning. (i smiled) as they prayed for me i just felt everything disappear. all of the sour emotions. the things that i held onto because i thought there was no way i could get rid of it. it felt like a wind was blowing everything clean inside of me.

i got this deep revelation today that God has already claimed me as His. i am clean & spotless in His sight because, to Him, i am covered in grace. i have been too overwhelmed in my own emotions that i have to stay as "strong" as possible as to not be caught off guard. ive had it all wrong. i have to be weak sometimes so that God can be strong in my life. ive heard that before but today it just rang something new inside of me.

so here i am...so amazed @ the fact that i am lavished in His grace and that in my weakness He is made strong; stronger than i could have ever been on my own. thank you Jesus for holding me when i need it. thank you for embracing me and showing me new things when You know i need it! ;)

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