i have this hunger inside of me that craves for more & more. i have been this way for quite some time now but ever since MC conference that hunger has just continued to grow. no matter how hard i pray or how loud i sing this hunger/thirst will not be quenched.
during convention i was seeing a lot of the teens receive the gift of the Holy Spirit and it delighted my heart. i remember when that happened to me and i wouldnt give it up for anything. at times i feel as though i have forgotten or lost the gift but i know its not true. He is never gonna leave me or forsake me. i know that for a fact!
last night @ Tehillah we had a time of reflection after Dave's message. i just sat there and well..."reflected." i just wanted to be embraced by my Father and sit at His feet while being wrapped in His arms. i walked over & sat behind Mrs. Tammy and just sat there with my head on her back. i peacefully sat there and i felt loved. i felt my Father wrap his arms around me and hold me tight. you see, its times like that when i just dont wanna let go. its times like that when alls i can do is sit back, let Him hold me, & let go.
i can let go of everything that is holding me back. the main thing: my emotions. i dont think i ever cry more than when He's got me safe in His arms. let alone when i know it! my prayer is that all of my days would be laced with His love. i dont want to spend any time at all outside of His reach. i want to continue to hunger/thirst for more & more of His love. i also want Him to continually hold me. oh how i long for His embrace.
--> craving more of Him<--
~Kali~
- "Dearly Loved" :Jimmy Needham
- "The More I Seek You" :Kari Jobe
- "Wrap Me In Your Arms" :Micheal Gungor Band
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